Plot Blocked!

So I'm stumped.  I get to the same point in the story and I think: now what??!?

*Sigh*

I have all kinds of personal issues.  I've figured out my man's. He was easy.  My heroine - not so much.

I mean, intimacy issues aside, how does a sorta shy, sexually desperate woman find multiple partners to be at her beck and call??  She won't have just anyone. I'm not comfortable at all with the thought of the men she does meet passing her around their pack/friends. Not cool. I wouldn't let it happen to me, so neither will she.  But she still needs sex.

Perhaps I need to make her problem a little more solvable?! I mean... I was thinking three to four times a day... That means she needs to have a lunch break sex partner.. or even two during her work day... How could she even manage to work full time?!

Hum.... maybe she learns that if she feeds on dominant weres she doesn't need to feed as often?  But I want her to have vamp sex too! hrm... Hrmmm.. Damnit.

See?

Blocked.

Things I've Written

I'm not sure what all I'm going to be sharing with you today. I really need to work on my halloween costume damnit.  Not much to do thankfully, but I need to get that done first, before I let my brain wander into my dilemma of WTF is my plot?!  Conflict?? What conflict?!

Sooo, I thought I'd share things I've written in the distant past. ha.  I'm guessing everyone who's bothering to read this (I love my friends!), has already seen them, but well, here they are again. ;)

Mistress and Her Pets
http://www.asstr.org/files/Collections/Alt.Sex.Stories.Moderated/Year2007/55584

Demands of a Racing Life
http://www.asstr.org/files/Collections/Alt.Sex.Stories.Moderated/Year2007/55587

There are others, but I never posted them to the internets....or at least not under this name...  There is another I kinda want to share, since I think at least one woman I know might like it (though I feel I need to make the excuse that I wrote this when I was very young, legal and all, but young, so young):

Succubus Demons

So... I learned only last night, from my 'I don't watch TV/pay attention to pop culture' (yeah right!) husband, that Showcase's new TV show Lost Girl is about a half breed Succubus!  Bah!  Now I feel kind of trite... Then, bless him, my husband (I guess I need to come up with a short form for him!) reminded me that there are only so many archetypes/stories & all authors are guilty of re-using characters and stories over and over again throughout history.

So yeah... I think I'll keep my half breed, thank you very much.

Especially since I've spent the better part of yesterday and two hours this morning working out the kinks in her species details!  It's very very thorough! Hell, it's 4.5 pages long!!

I totally admit to borrowing/being inspired by Larrissa Ione and her demons, but hell, this is NaNo, I'm not publishing this!  And besides, I need all the help/inspiration I can get.  I've never attempted anything half so long!

At some point, that likely won't be today, I need to work on my plot again.  I want to try the snowflake method my friend minxy whose done NaNo and won 5 years running), pointed me to.

I still don't know know I can actually sum up my work in one sentence. Or even three.  This worries me.  It tells me there isn't a cohesive enough plot. *sigh*

But right now I'm starving so if I don't eat, nothing else is getting done. Thought processes are all shut down until my belly is full! ha. It's a slave driver my belly.... or a show stopper... yeah, that makes more sense!

Imput? Opinions? HELP?!

So.... After my brilliant idea last night, about making my characters other-worldy, I'm totally torn.

Do I go with the story I started out with, two humans just trying to figure themselves out and find love??

Or do I add the paranormal?  Make him a were-rat (he just HAS to be a rat), and her some kind of succubus demon?  His being a were would totally explain why he's not living with his fiance, and why after two years he's still not married her... and why he's afraid of becoming a journalist....  It could also add to his dominate nature... he could be an alpha for his pack/Roudere(I might steal this from Anita Blake).  Not their king, surely, but an alpha nontheless....

For her..... well if she knew she a succubus demon, then that would be a perfect reason never to get close. I'd have to come up with a...plan for how her type of demon works.....  I like the idea of her 'coming of age', or like her having a maturation cycle(s) while she's dating Alejandro.... I am almost wondering if she should be ignorant of what she is... have him tell her... have her freak out and stop seeing him?  But WHO would she turn to? And how would that person then not be her love interest??? bah... Complicated!

If she knows what she is, then she can be waiting for her maturation.. it can be like with humans, it comes at a certain point, but never the exact same point... so for her it happens while she's dating A.  She's afraid after that to have sex with him too often, she doesn't want to literally love him to death.  But she needs sex, like we need food, or she'll die, so she starts fucking around? She pulls aways from A, and begins a slutty adventure of kinky sex?  Always looking for the same high she got with A, and not understanding why other men don't give it to her -- she has no idea A isn't exactly human....  Perhaps she can find out his secret all on her own by accidentally finding another were to play with?? hrmm....

Hum.... and can weres and seccubus demons have babies?? Do either of them want to breed?  These things usually end in a breeding couple.....  Perhaps she's only half demon??  I really need to work/figure/create this out if I want it to you know, acutally make some semblance of sense. Bah! Bah I say!

I feel I should apologise...

There is no plan for double penetration vampire sex in my NaNo novel.... unless things go very badly and I start writing out my heroines fantasy's... lol.

However, since that seems to be what gets me these days, I'm just going to have to come up with a story that involves such a threesome. Clearly we need more vampire DP action! I just don't have any vamps in my head right now, none of my own anyway. I'll have to let that percolate....

For now I'm trying to focus on my all too normal romance story.  Gods, it really is normal, isn't it? Well, if I can't come up with enough plot then I'll turn Alejandro into a were animal(rat, wolf, kitty cat?) that's trying to hide his true nature from the two women in his life.....  Perhaps my heroine can be half succubus demon that comes of age at 25. *giggles* SEX! SEX! SEX Must have sex, or she'll DIE!

See, this is what happens when it's late and I pull shit out of my ass. ;)  I may or may not use this... Anything to add plot complexity can't be all bad, can it??

Status Update

Still working away on my plot..and I'm finally getting excited... I think I might actually be able to do this!! :D :D :D

Alejandro

No, I'm not talking Lady Gaga.

Before that song came out, and I admit it, I rather like it, I had a dream about a man named Alejandro.  I'm sure it was inspired, in part, by Laurell K Hamilton's Anita Blake Series... I think I was just reading about the were-rats, when we really get to see them shine.. Rafael is all over Alejandro in a big sexy way.

It was a long dream, but the story was very foggy. The one question I woke up with was, how could my heroine, the woman's whose shoes I was literally wearing, be the mistress of an engaged man, and be okay with it?  Screw morality, logically, it's just not sound.  If he'll like to the woman he's going to marry, he sure as fuck will lie to the woman he's sleeping around with!  Yet someone there was so much peace in her.  She'd accepted her place, she just wanted to be near him...

I can't write that. I don't understand it.  But I can understand trying to be at peace with it.  I can understand 'taking what you can get'.  I can understand closing your heart off, being his friend, and fucking his brains out.  That I can do.  So that's what I think I'm going to write.

I've been looking for a conflict, for something more. Because a good romance always has to have something in the way of the couple. There has to be some kind of problem the two of them have to overcome.  Usually it's external, in the books I've read. Like a crazy stalker that wants to kill one of them, or a curse that will kill one of them if they fall in love, or one of them gets kidnapped.  Someone needs saving...there is violence to bring them together.  I don't have that here. If I wanted to add that...it would go somewhere dark, somewhere I don't think I want this to go. This, sadly, isn't about werewolves, or vampires, or demons.  Just about a man who needs to grow up, and a woman trying desperately not to fall in love with the man she wants him to be.

Though... see.. right there. I want this to be from HER point of view. Yet...she doesn't really have any issues of her own.  She isn't...interesting enough.. I think perhaps I need to give her general trust issues. Not just with the almost-married man.  That would explain why she did so well with him. She was never in danger of loving him. Only when she starts dating and playing with other people does she realise this.  It wasn't just him.  It was her.  She doesn't trust anyone.  So even after Alejandro sorts out his own shit he still has to overcome her wall of distrust.....

Is that enough for a romance novel????  I just... I don't know.  BAH!

First Post! Blog Cherry goes Pop!

Hello all!

So, this is totally an experiment for me.  I haven't written in awhile, but I want to get back on the saddle, so to speak.

In an attempt to be brave, or maybe just crazy, I've signed up for NaNo.  50,000 words in a month. o.0  I'm not sure if I can do it, but I really want to try.

I find that when I write I have...TERRIBLE typing & spelling, seriously!  You'd think I'd get better with time, but noooooo.  Practice does not make perfect!  As I like to say, Practice makes Plateau.

But what I was trying to say, was that I have a horrible compulsion to go back and fix everything, as I write it.  I just can't leave well enough alone.  This is the major reason why so much of what I want to write, so much of what I start, just never gets finished --- because I never let myself go and just write.  NaNo is going to force me to do this if I want to get even close to the goal.  Hopefully it will be a freeing experience.  It doesn't have to be good, it doesn't even have to make sense, I just need to let my brain go and just write.  I'm hoping I can do it.... I'm so not sure if I can.  But I'm going to try damnit.

So, to that end, I've started this blog.  I need a place where I can vent my ideas.  Where I can try to come up with some kind of plot.  I so can't talk about this on my personal blog because well... family reads that. They so do not need to know that I have a thing for double penetration sex with vampires!  Or that I have a scene I just thought up last night where my yet unnamed heroine tops a man, and makes him cum by biting his thigh.....so hot....  But yeah, family and vanilla friends to NOT need to know these things!